Awkward and Apartment

I'm awkward.

I wave at people who aren't looking at me. I can never make a smooth hug transition. I am the queen of uncomfortable pauses in a conversation. I avoid people who intimidate me, and I'm painfully awkward on the telephone. However, I've come to fully embrace this as a part of my human nature. I'm able to look back on those awkward moments and laugh instead of cringe, because it happens to everybody. We're all socially inept at one point or another. It happens. Everyone gets stuff stuck in their teeth. I'm over it.

This awkward girl wants an apartment! I'm sick of living in a single room. It's stifling. I eat, sleep, study, play, live, bathe, go to the bathroom and lay around in, essentially, a 12'x9' space. Every other college sophomore on every other campus is already living in their own apartment or house, so what's up with Albion? It's so hard to go off campus here - most people don't even get approved until their senior year. Seriously, we're all adults and deserve to be living independently. This means not on top of each other in a dorm building with RAs breathing down our necks. I understand that the college is trying to protect our "safety" (meaning, NO DRINKING NO DRINKING NO DRINKING), but I believe at this point in my life I should be living on my own and making my own decisions, however poor they may be. How do they expect us to ever manage our own households, and, really, our own lives if we're living in a supervised environment until we're 22?

All I want is a kitchen with my own Crate and Barrel (or Target...) dishes, a welcome rug, a coffee table, and an old, comfortable couch. I'd love to be able to study in my dwelling without the constant din of the Grey's Anatomy, rap music and Halo. Good grief.